Tuesday, October 19, 2004!
HandWritten on; 11:14 AM
today is a bad day. veh bad. veh veh bad.
my science results sucks like hell. failed. oh my gawd damnit. what the heck! only got
45/100. what kinda mark is this, actually i dun even noe myself. hope i dunid to re-take the exam. or else i'll seriously faint. i cant get into the mood for mugging and studying again! after so much pain and whatever the exams are finally over. [at least i thot it's over.] it cant be here again. oh my gawd damnit.
didn't apply for the bi-cultural thingie.cos im too lazy to write that reason thingie.and there's no time to write. and im not that enthu abt chinese too. but jus think that it'll be a good experience and stuff liddat. but what's done cannot be undone. i already handed up the form. i passed up a chance.
now that i gotta the baddddd result for sci, im really terrified of math later. what the heck hope i do welllll this time. dun kill me. i cant take it anymore. i just putting on a brave front over here. in fact i do feel like crying.-
i duno what's the PROB with me lately. cant seem to focuse on what im supposed to do or what im doing. and i cant believe i actually passed up an once-in-a-lifetime chance to join the BSP(C). and i actually FAILED SCIENCE. i dun wan to do this. i dun wan to break down. this sucks man.totally.utterly. and i always HAD TO PUT ON A FALSE BRAVE FRONT. I haf no idea why i have to do that. please others?or else they won stop talk to me? i seriously duno.